To do it or not to do it. That is the question.

Life is made up of choices. From deciding what shirt to wear to what you are going to spend your bonus check on. The crossroads, the fork in the road, the cliff you jump off, the deep pool you dive into. Life is made up of choices.

So, when I was younger, the toughest choice for me was what color I'm going to choose to color the monkey in. That was my toughest choice. My head would quiver as to what crayon I would use. Color the monkey green and it looks like slime. Color it blue and I'm a weirdo. Color it brown then I'm copying everybody in group.

Little did I know that as I got older, choosing what crayon to use would be the least of my worries.

It's like that famous Afrikaans saying : "Klein probleme, klein oplossings. Groot probleme en jy leer bid."

And now, just before the brink of my 21'st year on Earth, the toughest choices for me still lie ahead. I always try to keep myself calm when I've got a tough choice to make. I keep telling myself: "Wait till you older. You'll be stressing over much more."

Lucky for me, my mom told me that I'm an easy child when it came to making bigger choices. Okay. She may not know of other choices I've had to make, but a mother should know what she's talking about. My friends say the same thing. I've got my head screwed on when it comes to making choices.

Then why doesn't it seem like that to me. It feels like I'm indecisive. Like I spend too much time pondering on my next move. I know life is made up of tough choices, but shouldn't you learn from your mistakes. I tread too careful, as I don't want to make a mistake.

I've come to learn that jumping into a decision can't work. I've come to learn that trusting your heart when deciding doesn't work. I've come to learn that being under prepared for what comes after the decision doesn't work. What I have learned is that following your head and common sense helps most of the time.

Yay? Nay?

There will naturally come a day when I'll think back to the day I needed to decide what color to color the monkey and I'll realise: I'll be okay.

Just another day on the calender

"Denile. It's not just a river in Egypt. It's a freaken ocean. So how do we keep from drowning in it?" - Meredith Grey

I can pretend today is just another day on the freaken calender, but we all know 14 February signals Valentines Day. (Excuse me while I wipe up the vomit from the floor).

Okay Okay. Let me state the first fact. I am not one of those bitter people who had one bad Valentines Day and now sworn it off for the rest of my existence. I'm just a firm believer that Valentines Day should be celebrated everyday. Love shouldn't be bought by money. It should be bought by pure acts of random, selfless kindness.

My bestie, Chené reckons that today is "Single's Awareness Day." Couldn't agree more. Rather try and make money off single people than on love.

Every year around 1 billion Valentine cards are sent across the world. After Christmas this is the single largest card-sending holiday.

Verona, the Italian City where Shakespeare's play lovers, Romeo and Juliet lived, receives about 1 000 letters every year sent to Juliet on Valentine's Day.

The oldest surviving love poem till date is written in a clay tablet from the times of the Sumerians, the inventors of writing, around 3500 B.C.

Is Valentines Day just still another day on the calender for me? Yes. But, I can't deny the fact that I am a hopeless romantic and if some random card ended up on my desk or in my mailbox, I would smile bigger than a small boy opening his birthday presents.

Denile. It's not just a freaken river in Egypt hey.

Waiting on the world to change

Mr. John Mayer wrote this song called "Waiting on the world to change". In this song he sings:


"And we're still waiting 
Waiting on the world to change 
We keep on waiting waiting on the world to change 
One day our generation 
Is gonna rule the population 
So we keep on waiting 
Waiting on the world to change 

We keep on waiting 
Waiting on the world to change" 

I get what he is saying. But I'm not so sure about this weird, random guy in the store yesterday. 

As I was walking over to the ATM this man crossed my path, stared at me, and then told me:

"Die wêreld gaan nie verander nie. Die mense is te kwaad vir mekaar en daar is te veel haat. Ek hoop jy verstaan wat ek sê?" 

I just kept quiet and nodded, creating the impression that I was deaf and didn't hear what he had just said. 

I was shocked. I didn't get what he meant. Where had he fallen out of? Was he on drugs? Drunk? Lonely? 

Walking home from the shops, I looked down and saw my shirt while looking down. I was wearing my white Volcom-shirt that read: "Embrace change." 

I then got what that man meant. He was referring to my shirt - the world isn't going to change. People are too scared and they hate each other so much for that change to happen. I didn't know where he was coming from. Where he stays, how we was brought up as a child ect. I only got that he knew the world wasn't going to change. 

For now, I'm just saying: Whatever. 

So what if the people in the world hate each other, and people in Egypt want to slit each others throats. So what that people turn their backs on violence and other wrong-doings. I'm tired of looking at the problem when nothing is happening. 

Instead, I'm waiting on the world to change. Hope in the darkest of hours brings much more to the table than staring at the problem and throwing your hands in the air. 

As my shirt read: Embrace change. 

** In my place **

In my place, in my place
Were lines that I couldn't change
I was lost, oh yeah
I was lost, I was lost
Crossed lines I shouldn't have crossed
I was lost, oh yeah

(Yeah)
How long must you wait for it?
(Yeah)
How long must you pay for it?
(Yeah)
How long must you wait for it?
Oh for it

I was scared, I was scared
Tired and under prepared
But I'll wait for it
If you go, if you go
And leave me down here on my own
Then I'll wait for you

(Yeah)
How long must you wait for it?
(Yeah)
How long must you pay for it?
(Yeah)
How long must you wait for it?
Oh for it

Singing ooh, ooh
Please, please, please
Come back and sing to me, to me, me
Come on and sing it out now, now
Come on and sing it out to me, me
Come back and sing

In my place, in my place
Were lines that I couldn't change
I was lost oh yeah
Oh yeah


-- Coldplay --